Happy Birthday Jojo!

HAPPY 18TH LEGAL BIRTHDAY TO MY FIRST COLLEGE FRIEND! 

Dear Josephine Pang,

Helo! It's 27/5, someone birthday today! *Clap! 

Although we know each other not more than 2 months,but I don't know why,we just like already know each other very very very long timeeee,we just like sister what! HAHA. Seriously,thanks God for arranged such a good,nice,best money/pattern gang beside me,all of you are my angels! Leave home town and come here study myself really make me feel so scare and lonely,but because of all of you,I enjoy and love my college life so much now. Girl,thanks for being one of my college friend,and because of you I know Shake,Kelly,Wai Peng,and Tarro. Nothing much to say,just want to say,Happy 18th Birthday! Guess you enjoyed your birthday eve so much and continue enjoy your birthday with your family. Life still go on,we still have so much time,so much year,we still can celebrate your birthday together. Lastly,thanks again! Keep your pretty smile and your crazy-ness! All of us love you very much! See you next Tuesday! Love yeh! 

-Friends are the angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly. Thanks for lifting up my spirits whenever I was low. Wishing you an awesome legal birthday! :) 

                                                                                                Regards,San San.

我能吗？

吉隆坡的第三个星期。是的，很快的进入了第三个星期，还有一个星期就要一个月了。时间，真的过的好快。本来以为，入境随俗的我很快就能适应这里，觉得自己很独立的我不管做什么都可以靠自己，但，事实却不是如此。适应因该可以说是适应了，但独立这点却突然消失不见。
一直以为自己有多独立，不管到哪里都可以靠自己做好一切，只要还有一股勇气的存在，就什么都不怕。但，当一切活生生的展现在你面前，就突然发现有时即使你再强，再多的勇气，你也会往后退一步，害怕的不敢往前。
来了三个星期，发现，一切真的不如我想像当中那么的简单。太多的未知数，让我真的害怕了起来。害怕一个人出去，害怕一个人做事，甚至就连吃饭也开始害怕了。本来想说：一个人根本就没什么好怕的，但是事实来临时，真的感到从来没有的恐惧。
对于接下来，真的不知如何是好，勇气好像真的用完了。从别人口中得知自己的科系真的没那么的简单，实在害怕自己读不上。对自己好失望，甚至好想放弃现在的一切，回到从前去。但是，来了就是来了，再也不能回头了。
好几次，真的因为害怕默默地流下了眼泪。眼泪告诉我，我快撑不下去了。有时，真的好想打给妈妈诉苦，甚至想告诉她，我想放弃，我想回家，我很害怕，我撑不下去了。但是，如果告诉了妈妈，她又会开始担心起了我。
学费缴了，房租还了，花了不少，也开始上课了，加上当初是我自己坚持要来到这里求学，我就有责任要坚持下去，完成学业，不是吗？
给自己太多的压力，很想把它们从我脑中清除，好让我可以好好享受读书的时光。我要坚持，我要撑下去，但，我能吗？